Have you ever felt like there's no one you can count on when you're feeling lost and you don't know what you want in life? Or have you ever felt paranoid over the smallest thing- about simply everything? Do you happen to worry too much till you cant fall asleep at night? Start crying due to the nonsensical fucked up mind where it just can't stop thinking and start to pick on things to worry about?

Cause I think I do!
I spend 20 hours a day thinking of the things I want and how my future will be like.
I spend another 4 hours dreaming of it.
My mind is like a catalog when it comes to shopping, pricing, bags, watches and shoes.
I want to do shopping like a buffet.
I have got really bad habits when it comes to shopping.
Buying multiple colors of the same design just because I am worry that it might wear and tear.
Or, buying things impulsively, till then, I realize I do not really fancy that much at all.
Ended up, stuffing them into wardrobe.
Is this the symptoms of some crazy shopaholic or something?
I am dying to get a Dior Clutch/ a P/ a M.

Anyway, coming back to reality...
Leaving on 12 Aug to Australia and be back on 19 Aug for a holiday before baby's enlistment and for my advance birthday celebration...
Soon after, I am leaving on the 24Aug for Wuhan for 5 months and will be back on next year's January to complete my last sem in Poly.
I think its time to learn how to be independent.
Time passes reeeeally fast.
Before you could think of what to do after tertiary education, poly is ending soon like a snap away.
I can't bear to part with my school mates and etc, but life still moves on.
I dread to become an adult.
I am lost, I got no plans, I don't know what to do after Poly, I have got tons to worry about.
One thing for sure, I know what I want in life.

BATAM- TRIPLE was awesome, its great.
Pictures to be uploaded soon.

Till then..